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The October TRI-ESS meeting could not come quicker for me this month. After 
  all it was October and that means Halloween and Halloween means costumes and 
  that turns me into a little kid again. 
 In September I had started planning the "costume to end all costumes" and 
  I had it all. I was going as a "little girl." I had the perfect dress thanks 
  to eBay, the accessories thanks to the local thrift store and dance supplier, 
  the shoes thanks to my daughter with really big feet haaha and even the Shirley 
  Temple wig just for my costume. A week before the party, I had packed everything 
  up and hung up my dress in the closet so it would not wrinkle.
  
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      That morning I got up at 5:30, packed the car with more luggage than 
        should be needed for an overnight jaunt, but what CDER travels light? 
        By 7:30 I was changed and heading off to the Windy City. I arrived plenty 
        early at the hotel and checked in enfemme. Not an eyebrow was raised when 
        I arrived and the bellhop quickly said, "let me help you with those bags 
        miss." I smiled and said thanks. The room I had was still occupied as 
        I had an early checking and he was very helpful in getting me another 
        room.  He got a good tip for his trouble, as the room was an adjoining 
        room for my sister and her spouse.
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I unpacked and that is when I realized that the costume I had picked was a 
  sure winner except for one small but very important detail.  The dress was 3 
  hours south and still quite wrinkle free hanging in my closet. I sighed and 
  figured destiny must have wanted it this way, either that or I am loosing my 
  memory! So much for wowing my sisters with my creative side I guess for this 
  year at least. I freshened up my makeup and such and waited for my sisters to 
  arrive.  Rae Ann and Pat arrived about 11:00 and we exchanged hugs and greetings 
  then Pat and I waited and chatted as Rae Ann emerged out of her male self. 
 After Rae and I had Pat touch up those tough areas like our faces haaha, 
  we went on our shopping trip to Sky Scraper heels in Chicago. Pat asked me to 
  drive because I guess she wanted to see if the rumors about Massachusetts drivers 
  were true (I am a transplanted New Englander living in East Central IL) and 
  all I will say is in Massachusetts traffic laws are simply suggestions haaha. 
  (only kidding, really!!). 
We arrived at Sky Scrappers and went in to look around. Sky Scrapper also 
  sells corsets and some more "extreme" styles of shoes that apparently cater 
  to the fetish community, however we were looking for heels we could walk in! 
  There were a few customers there trying on shoes and one of them, a lovely GG 
  was trying on boots and ultimately decided to buy a corset. I mention that because 
  she modeled it for us (over her blouse of course) after the owner laced her 
  in. We were all sold on the quality of the corsets and the skill of the lace 
  job haha. In fact, Rae Ann had come here with the idea of getting a corset and 
  she wound up buying one and it does a wonderful job with her figure as well. 
  We both bought lovely black pumps and Pat tried on a few pair of shoes but could 
  not find what she wanted.  
  
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      We left the store and headed back to the hotel to change for dinner 
        at 4:30 with another sister and her spouse. Of course Rae Ann needed to 
        wear her new corset and so Pat and I worked together to lace her in and 
        make sure she did not pass out in the process! No, it was not that tight, 
        but it did give her a lovely shape.  I wore a new corset I got from eBay 
        made out of white rubber with a cloth backing. I wore a new yellow dress 
        with navy blue floral print and matching navy jacket with my new pumps. 
        Rae Ann wore a lovely light blue print blouse/skirt set and Pat wore slacks 
        and a silk poncho and a lovely red wig.  
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      We went to a restaurant called J. Alexander's near the hotel and met 
        our friends Nicole and her wife Karen.  We sat down and after ordering 
        just chatted about everything from boats to fashion.
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      Dinner was wonderful, but Rae and I had a little less than normal, as 
        the corsets were a "tad" tight. Haha. The price we pay to look good I 
        guess.  Pat and I get along very well and all night I was teasing her 
        about "passing." Telling her she "almost passes," and if she used a good 
        beard cover she could hide that shadow. I got nudged a few times in the 
        process, but it was worth it as we all smiled and laughed and enjoyed 
        each other's company. The wait staff was very pleasant and never once 
        referred to us as anything but "ladies," which was a wonderful experience.
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      After dinner we all left and headed to the meeting. Again, no stares 
        or bad words were heard by any of us as we confidently walked out to our 
        car. The meeting crowd was a little lighter than usual as there were a 
        few other TG events going on in the area that night and some of the sisters 
        were not there. It did not matter as we still had a good meeting and nominated 
        people for all offices within the chapter as well as some volunteer positions. 
        I volunteered to work on the web page as well as a greeter. 
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We had a special speaker who is just finishing her masters 
  in counseling. She goes this week for her license test as a matter of fact. 
  She is very interested in TG issues and has plans to try hard to help the community 
  in all areas and on all levels. That was very inspiring. 
 
After her presentation he costume judging took place. We had 
  some great costumes, but I still think "little girl Rae" was a shoo-in for a 
  bag of trinkets! The winner was a sister who made her own "playboy bunny" costume 
  out of a long line black bra, lycra brief and some great sewing ability. It 
  was fun for sure for everyone.   
  
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      After the meeting, we wanted to head out to a quiet 
        nightspot called "Dixons," which is a gay owned restaurant/bar.  Of course 
        Rae and I changed again into more "night on the town" outfits and Pat 
        opted to keep her meeting outfit on. The dress I chose was form fitting 
        and quite short. Not a "going to Church dress" I guess J and I was pleased with the look the corset 
        and other "assistants" provided me.  Rae Ann decided to change out of 
        her corset for comfort, but if I did I'd never fit into my dress oh well. 
        J  Dixons was quiet and we had a small snack, 
        a glass of wine and conversation. About 1:30, we decided to head back 
        to the hotel and get to bed, after all Pat and I had a date with the pool 
        at 5:30 AM.  
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      Morning came too quickly and after 3 hours sleep I could 
        have killed the alarm clock, but I suppressed the urge and staggered out 
        of bed and showered, and slipped into my suit for our rendezvous with 
        the Hotel's lap pool and hot tub. The reason we went so early is because 
        I knew there would be no children and quiet at 5:30 or so in the morning. 
        It was quiet and Pat and I enjoyed the pool and hot tub lounging around 
        like sisters chatting about all sorts of fun topics from girl talk to 
        cooking (we both love to cook) to husband/wife relationships and even 
        crossdresing believe it or not haahaa. While we were lounging in the hot 
        tub a few people including a hotel maintenance worker came around. We 
        smiled and continued our chitchat, letting the tub slowly wake us up. 
        We hopped in the pool after the hot tuba and yikes that was a temperature 
        change! It took a few moments to stop shivering and enjoy the water. This 
        is when a husband and wife came in and slipped into the hot tub. They 
        never looked at the 2 ladies in the shallow end of the pool talking and 
        laughing and playing like little kids.  
        
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      After we determined that we were wrinkled like raisin's we headed back 
        to our hotel rooms to change for church. If you recall my last weekend 
        report, I make it a policy to attend church as Rae Louise whenever I am 
        in Chicago for the weekend.   Pat and Rae also joined me in worshiping. 
        I teased Pat a little because she was wearing slacks and Rae Ann and I 
        wore dresses and heels.  Pat just smiled, nudged me and we laughed even 
        more.  We arrived just in time for service after thinking we missed the 
        street for the church.  Walking in to the building Rae Ann and I met a 
        lot of familiar faces from the last visit and we were welcomed with many 
        hugs and handshakes from true Christian friends.
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      Church was beautiful as always and this time Rae Louise did not cry 
        the entire service, but as able to make it almost all the way to the end 
        before the tears started. It was the song I have sung for years as a Christian 
        that suddenly touched my soul.Something Beautiful is the title and
the words we sang are:
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      Something beautiful 
        Something good 
        All my confusion, He understood 
        All I had to offer Him was brokenness 
        and strife 
        But He made something beautiful out of my life
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Church was beautiful as always and this time Rae Louise did 
  not cry the entire service, but as able to make it almost all the way to the 
  end before the tears started. It was the song I have sung for years as a Christian 
  that suddenly touched my soul.  
I sang that after communion and tears were streaming down 
  my eyes knowing once again that God had found a way to tell Rae Louise she is 
  special in His eyes. I composed myself and we met the minister after church 
  and chatted for a while before heading back for brunch and checkout of the hotel. 
Brunch was great, but wow was it expensive! We enjoyed ourselves 
  and I felt very confident walking up to the buffet a few times for various things 
  to eat. No bad stares or comments from anyone and the waiter as very friendly 
  and made us "ladies" feel right at home.  
The hour had finally come and I needed to head back home as 
  did Rae Ann and Pat.  Rae Ann called for a bellhop to bring down an awful lot 
  of luggage for 3 people and one night (haaha) and we checked out of the hotel 
  enfemme.  Before we did, we made reservations for November as I will be celebrating 
  my 20th wedding there with my wife and it "just happens" to be on 
  a weekend of a TRI-ESS meeting. What are the odds? (grin)
Pat, Rae Ann and I hugged goodbye and headed out separate 
  ways.  
As I drove home, I reflected on the weekend and how comfortable 
  I was with myself as Rae as well as my friends. My confidence is continuing 
  to rise and I do not feel awkward at all most of the time. This is because of 
  my TRI-ESS sisters I know and all the love and support I get from them in helping 
  Rae Louise emerge from a cocoon that has held her for too many years. 
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